DAY 82 L (Sunday)

I went to Big Bear's to watch the hockey final, and it was a blizzard of chips/dip/pizza bites/cheese pufss etc etc. So in a way, I did it for my country.

This by far was my shittiest week in a long time. I don't wanna panic/get discouraged, so I'm hoping this upcoming one will be a lot better.

SPLURGE DAY

So fuck...yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeew!

DAY 81 W

Lunch
Peas & Corn 425 calories

DINNER
Peanut butter sandwiches (2)  640 calories

SNACK
Popcorn 300 calories 

DAY 79 L DAY 80 L

a slump. ohoh   :/

DAY 77 W & 78 W

My internet at home is down (STILL!!), so couldn't post yesterday. All I had was a grilled chicken sandwich on a bagel with cheese.

TODAY:
BREAKFAST
Roll with butter 230 calories
Green tea  280 calories  (ugh)

LUNCH
Ham and cheese sandwich  320 calories

DINNER
2 slices of pepperoni pizza 560 calories 

1390!  Hanging on by a thread! 

DAY 76 W

DINNER
Turkey, cheese, lettuce and mayo on hero 457 calories

SPLURGE DAY!

so eff you.

DAY 75 W

DINNER
Cheese slice of pizza + 1/2 slice   325 calories

DAY 74 L

LUNCH
Potatoes & corn 400 calories

DINNER
Disaster 

I can live with a regular "L" - I was babysitting, which means a blizzard of snacks/chicken tenders et al. I don't understand how all parents aren't 900 lbs.

But I'm furious at myself re: on the way home I got two slices of pizza. Knowing the whole time I wasn't hungry, didn't even particularly want/need them. Forced myself to finish the second one. The whole thing was in slow motion.

Hoping actually noting this and being honest about it keeps me from doing it again. It's my first L in a while, I've actually been really good; just don't panic. Have some self-awareness.

DAY 73 W

LUNCH
Potatoes & corn (too much butter) 800 calories

DAY 72 W

LUNCH
Bacon egg 'n cheese on roll 450 calories

DAY 71 W

LUNCH
Boiled potatoes & corn 760 calories 

DAY 71 L

Chicken fingers
Sausage parm hero
Garlic bread


There's fucking irony. My Splurge Day I eat a fucking bowl of cereal. The next day I eat a fucking horse. Grrrr.

Splurge Day

Last year I wrote about a college buddy losing 100lbs HERE. Amazing. One of his rules is that he gives himself a one-day-a-week "splurge day," which means that one day a week, he eats whatever he wants to without worrying about calories.

Also, a few days ago outta the blue Brothatime!! suggested I do the same thing, so I take these two things as a sign that it's a good thing to do. Knowing I have that one day coming up will hopefully stop me from any panicky meltdown calls to Kam Sing or Dominos. That day from here on will be Saturday. And I'm making it a rule that I can't do the ol' "well, I just ate an entire pizza, so I'll make today this week's Splurge Day even though its only Monday." If I do feel the need to change it, like for instance there's some big event on Sunday, or Big Bear's birthday is on a Friday or whatever, then I need to do it in advance.

Now, I am not giving myself license just yet to go crazy just so I can. For instance, today I decreed that I can only eat whatever I've already bought - no restaurants, no delivery. So I ate a bowl of Cheerios. Granted, it was such a big bowl I almost didn't finish it, but still. I haven't felt the need to eat anything else just for eating's sake, so hopefully these past few months really HAVE changed some of my habits.

Splurge Day will not count towards any wins/losses.

DAY 70 W

LUNCH
Turkey sub  cheese, no mayo (and barely any fucking turkey or cheese  grr)  500 calories

DINNER
2 slices pizza 500 calories 

SNACK
Popcorn 300 calories 

1300 total calories
  

DAY 69 W

LUNCH
Potatoes 220 calories
Corn 250 calories
Bread & butter 300 calories 

DINNER
Popcorn 300 calories

SNACK
Popcorn 300 calories


1370 calories

DAY 68 W

LUNCH
Cheerios 500 calories why the fuck did I get whole milk???!?!?
Peanut butter sandwich 300 calories 

DINNER
Potatoes 220 calories
Bread & butter 300 calories 

Hanging in by a biscuit

4-day wrapup

Sat W
Sun L
Mon L
Tues W

DAY 63 W

LUNCH
Bacon egg 'n cheese on roll 450 calories

Can't have an L today. Not with the Super Bowl (guaranteed L) coming up!!!

DINNER
Pasta w/frozen peas 350 calories

DAY 62 L

(Thursday)

Complete disaster

DAY 61 W

 LUNCH
Potatoes 440 calories
Corn 180 calories
Butter 180 calories (not by itself, jackasses)

DINNER
2 slices pizza 500 calories

Holding at 1300!!!

DAY 60 W

LUNCH
Ham and cheese sandwich  320 calories

DAY 59 L

LUNCH
Potatoes 440 calories
Corn 180 calories (organic. I'm gay!)
Bread & butter 480 calories

SNACK
Popcorn 300 calories 

SNACK
Popcorn 300 calories

POPcorn??!? Fucking popcorn??!?!?!  Grrrrrrr.

DAY 58 L (Sunday)

Four pieces of pizza 1480 calories
Chickenstrips 1080 calories

One for the ages!!!